my truth life

kejadian yang tak disangka

Posted in Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Beberapa hari ni,hati aku rasa xsedap hati je..try to figure out..but,dunno how..then,biarkan je...

but today something happen to me..till now still phobia...otw back to my hse with my cousin.tiba2 dia dapat sms frm 1 of our family mengejek dia n say sumthng..now,my csn tgh ada problem besar.otak bercelaru..then dia still ok.still drive mcm biasa..then,dia dpt 1 sms lg..tiba2 dia baling hp dia kuat2..kwn dia ddk sblh and aku ddk seat belakang..then dia bwk kete laju2 and tiba2..omg...dia bawak kereta terhuyung-hayang mcm org mabuk..then yg buat aku phobia,masa dia bawak laju and terhuyung-hayang,lori minyak kat sebelah kiri.betul2 tmpt seat aku ddk..lagi sikit nk langgar lori minyak.sipi je..lori tu betul2 side aku.omg..if kwn dia xtolak stereng ke kanan,hbs la.kereta csn aku n lori minyak berlanggar and dekat situ jugak kereta n lori akan meletup and aku da xda lagi sekarang...still now aku still phobia and teringat kejadian td...nyawa aku hampir hilang tadi..allah selamatkan aku..thanks to Allah..

afta that,my csn stop kereta tepi highway and lepaskan geram dia.haih.aku da takut sgt2 nk biarkan dia drive..aku sms family aku yg sms dia n marah2..then aku ckp,krn sms tu,aku n csn aku blh mati td langgar lori minyak...stop sms my csn..then dia reply..dia ckp sms tu hanya gurauan..nk gurau pun xblh..

yang paling aku sedih sgt2..dia ckp"lantak la korg nk kena apa pun,aku xnk campur"..bila aku baca je sms ni,ya allah...mcm mana family aku sendiri blh ckp mcm ni kat aku??nyawa kitorang hampir melayang td gara2 sms yg dia hantar..dia reply mcm ni kat aku??aku punya la syg sgt kat dia...now,aku da faham sgt...aku xsangka yg dia blh reply mcm tu kat aku selepas dia yang mulakan dulu sms tu..

aku mengaku,salah csn aku..tiba2 naik gila baca sms tu and jadi xbtl and hampir je mati td..tapi,kalau family aku yg sorg tu xstart sms,semua ni xkan terjadi..fine,xsalahkan dia jugak..tapi,knp dia blh ckp mcm tu kat family dia sendiri..manusia mmg mcm ni...

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the past of my life

Posted in Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Our life is so precious

we must to be thank to God

sometimes,i wonder why my life are not happy as i want

but i know, i wont be happy at all

since child, i faced family problems in my life like others too

my family always fighting each other

always blaming each other

when i was at the primary school,i shocked about 1 news from my family

whats the news??i gotta to know

my parents otw to divorce!!

oh my god!!

i cant imagine what my feelings that time

feeling so hurt,sadness and so on

i know my mum and my dad are not happy together

the best way are divorce

i must accept!!

my sis and I try to makes my mum happy

my mum sacrificed all her life to me and my sis

she want us to be sucessfull one day

same as my dad

all i want in this world are to be together in my family eventhough i know thats impossible

but that my dreams

the dreams i know that will never comes true

now,i must focus in my life

whatever happens to my family,i will accept it

even i regret my family like this

i love my family so damn much

i know now my dad happy with his life

my sis and I want to take care of my mum

wanna makes my mum happy

i love my mum and my dad

even my dad got a new family now

but he still love me and my sis so much

i can see that

my father working hard to bear our life

and now, my father became a successful businessman

but i know my mum still hurt till now what happens to her marriage

she want to be like others

happy with beloved husband

but she didnt get that from my dad

she always said to me that she really wanna be happy like others

i dont mind if my mum wanna marry again if she find her true love

but my sis dont want my mum married again

my sis do that because she dont want my mum suffer again like before

she dont want any guy hurting my mum

now, my sis and I just wanna makes my mum happy

we will take care of my mum no matter what

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what goes around comes around

Posted in Thursday, November 12, 2009

i feel that i can be away from anything that makes my life suffer...
what i gonna do now??
really dnt have any ideas to think...
it seems like gotta be more worst than before...
i could not imagine what my feelings rite now..
everything im doing,its like nothing ever happen..
y the life supposed to be like this...???
but i believe
what goes around comes around...
maybe im too weak to faced all this things....
shud i just let it go or shudnt??
im afraid if i let it go,im too suffer...
i dnt want to become weak...
now i just realized that im too stupid...
believing people too easy...
i just wanted to be HAPPY!!!!
im trying to do everything the best in my life..
sometimes i feel i wanna go to heaven..
my life problems never ends till the last breath...
now i realized what people said bout u..
i dunno what gonna happen after this...............
end

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~seven~

Posted in Tuesday, October 20, 2009

7 facts about me :

1) i love to be myself

2) i love my family damn much

3) hates hypocrite

4) easy going girl

5) helpful

6) hates a liar person

7) always dreaming something that unbelievable

7 things that scares me :

1) cat

2) ghost

3) failure

4) any types of animals

5) sickness

6) hot temper person

7) being a liar

7 song playing in my head lately :

1) i cant imagine me without you by jaci velasquez

2) the climb by miley cyrus

3) eh eh nothing else i can say by lady gaga

4) aku dan dirimu by bunga citra lestari

5) boom boom pow by black eyed peas

6) kiss me through the phone by soulja boy

7) pudar by rossa

7 valuable things in my life :

1) my family

2) my friends

3) handphone

4) my laptop

5) money

6) happiness

7) wealth

7 "First Time" in my life :

1) lost my happy family time

2) got my own laptop from my mum

3) being head prefects in secondary school which is so so unbelievable

4) coloured my hair

5) low blood pressure

6) skin problem during form 4

7) lost my eldest uncle

7 Words/Things i always use/say :

1) handphone

2) laptop

3) earphone

4) huhu

5) omg

6) damn it

7) haha

7 people i tag :

1) yeoh kim bee

2) mirna lestary

3) jeanne

4) tan peixi

5) sheera soraya

6) el

7) munira

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full day of classes

Posted in Thursday, October 01, 2009

~ monday 28 sept ~
my class started at 9am.accounts.omg!i didnt do any of accounts homework..well,very excited raya..but i can finish it at class.after class,we have 2 hours 30 mins rest.so,i and mirna decide to go library since we have accounts homework..at 2pm we have qm class..as usual as semester 1..who finish the homework can go back..so,i went back home at 4pm..

~ tuesday 29 sept ~
i came early today because need to do something..need to go cimb bank,public bank and maybank..then at 1130am,i had my lunch with my friends..we went to mcd..after that,we went to account class started at 12.15pm..today,sir said,just finish it our homework..after finish our homework,mirna said she hungry and ask me to accompany her to go eat..then,i asked sir permission...ahaks mirna,sir membebel with u arounds 15mins..haha..the next class started at 3.15pm.economic class..we're studying new chapter..thank god,this sem only got 3chapter to recover till dec exam..good..hehe..

~ wednesday 30 sept ~
today,i came early too..wait mirna at mcd 10.15am..we went to maybank and popular to bought stationeries there..then,we went to mcd to bought our lunch..we ate at class..we reach college early today..after ate,i sleep at class..hehe..so sleepy..when class start,wow..i cant open my eyes..too sleepy..now,i just thinking my bed and my pillow...hehe..thank god today we still didnt received our economics assignment..yeay!!haha

~ thurday 1 oct ~
as usual,came early today..i followed my sis..she sent me to lrt station today..reach college at 8am..just read newspaper and playing games..when class started at 8.45am,mirna still didnt come to class,..i called her n she said that she sick and cant go to class today..then ok la..kim sit beside me..we finish our exercise at 10am...then,i went back home and sleep...hehe

~ friday 2oct ~
today are the day that all of my class scared off...our result is coming out today!!!im so nervous okay...especially my accounts paper..huh..wishing that i will pass all the paper..please wishing me luck today..

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~reality in life~

Posted in Thursday, September 24, 2009

my life started to be worst and more even worst

i tried to make all the things in good and best position

but

what i got from there???

there's nothing!!!

since many years ago

i wanted to be happy in my life

but i know

its hard to be happy

why everything i done is wrong in your eyes???

since child, i live in a lot of challenges

challenges come n go,come n go

like air in our life

what are my dreams???

my dreams

i want my happy family back

but i know

i will never never got that back

even i faced a lot of problems

i tried to smile to everyone arounds me

sometimes,people do not appreciate us

people think that im useless,bitches n bla bla bla

wow!!!

i have pride ok!!!

i treat u nicely

but

u treat me like s**t

People's minds change

Mines the same

People's lives change

But I won't...I won't let go

I won't let go

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~beloved school friends~

Posted in Monday, September 07, 2009

SATURDAY ( 5 SEPT 2009)

i went out with my beloved friends since so long didnt meet them.we went to klcc.buka puasa togeher.me,sheera,her bf,dekla,rochelle,alifa and munira..at first,we want eat at chilli's..but,at 6pm,we went to chilli's...omg...peoples lining up till the end..huh...then,we went to dome..finally got place there...